COSMIC MIND draft
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ACKNOWLEDGEMENT
I would like to express my deep gratitude to those individuals who
mercilessly humiliated me during my writing, never believed in my ideas,
accomplishments, my untraditional artist's research, jeered, or
intentionally ignored my work and blamed me for not "learning", "working"
and "thinking" like normal people. I thank those who unpleasantly
distracted my life in many ways, often causing me illness and depression. I
have had no other way but to learn how to get over that experience, and finish this book. THE ARTIST'S NOTES ON HUMANS AND THE UNIVERSE OUR EYES, NOSES, EARS AND SKIN? Can we observe the world beyond our limited minds? Can we exist at all without our minds? "The Artist's Notes" is my desperate attempt to share some of the unique knowledge that I was lucky to obtain while practicing painting, and comparing my artist's experience with many kinds of mental processing. Whether we are dealing with everyday mundane reality, or with basic mathematical thinking and logic, or having dreams, our minds subconsciously follow the classical artist's rules in order to create visible scenarios of our realities. Every mind has a deep primordial artist's instinct of building a Composition a a Composition made of selected subjects, while constantly Comparing them, Focusing on some of them pushing the rest of subjects on a background, and finally Framing this composition, or in other words separating this composition from the rest of our reality. Every living mind is processing a quite fantastic number of these compositions, and if compared with an actual somewhat static artist's painting, these mental compositions go through endless transformations. Here is something crucial in our subconscious, deeply primordial creativity, that might reveal for us the process of life itself. PART ONE ABOUT THE CLASSICAL ARTIST'S RULES, MATH AND OUR OLD HUMAN MIND CHAPTER 1. Lessons beyond schools, or 1+1=1
Those first sharp impressions of reality enchanted me, yet they also
bewildered me with endless questions that remain with me to this day. I
did not know at the time that my desperately questioning mind of a
little artist was trying to explain nothing less than the natural
"mechanics" of our perceptions. There is nothing "mechanistic" in nature of our perceptions, I just call this a "mechanism of perceptions" for describing the coherence of the hidden works of our minds, behind the visible stage of our reality - the surface which we usually observe and analyze. "How come I can see, hear, smell and touch my reality, and how? How come that I so 'know' that I am myself?" "How others can see or hear me?" "How would I know that I can feel exactly what they feel?" "Why is that people use FLAT surfaces for writing, calculating, photographing, painting, printing, and for movie, television and computer screens?" "Why the images in my mind can not stay still, and are constantly fluctuating?" I found that hidden nature's art studio of perceptions in my own mind long time ago as a struggling young student, when I was trying to setup
my first mathematical scenario: 1+1=2. I have not realized yet that this
primordial art studio of the mind is to build my whole reality without
which no image, thought or idea are possible. Some years later I have
had to face a crucial fact: having no clues about how our minds
really perceive we have no possibility to really evolve our old recycling for thousands of years mentality, culture, sciences and ethics. occasionally emerge in brilliant light from the past, I feel as though I
am awakening from the deep dull sleep that we call our 'daily routine'.
Many of us call this sleep 'reality'.
The questions that children ask, come from the perspective of
independent observers. While they are still outsiders, newcomers, they
have not yet become seriously involved in pretensions of our society and
its scenarios, in attempting to fit into their limited categories. Very young children are our best teachers, before they become victims of our social habits of thinking and acting. As
comical as those questions may seem to an adult, the essence of wonder
itself remains the most precious quality of our nature and very often
this wonder can take us to the most mysterious debts of our psychology.
Often narrowing its range and decreasing its points with age that
natural wonder leaves a mind in quite stiff condition when we get older.
Sometimes we call this stiffness a tradition, experience or even
knowledge. As we grow up we hardly distinguish those habits of thinking, from our real circumstances.
In a minute or two one will be able to discover a crucial mistake in
exact sciences, without getting into almost any specific knowledge about
mathematics. That mistake we put as a very foundation of mathematics
that we use for millennia missing the very elementary knowledge about
sensual perceptions that many of us can obtain in our early childhood.
The first lessons about how we put visible reality together, so we
would be able to know that our calculations and the use of our
language and concepts are not based on universal laws, are not available
in schools. Therefore some little students might feel that human knowledge grows somewhere on trees.
Well, I was in my first grade of the quite ordinary elementary school
when my elderly teacher compelled us to memorize that 1+1=2, quite a
common in our everyday life calculation. That created a conflict in my
child's mind. If we take the very same, imaginatively perfect 1, twice, it remains absolutely the same 1. Therefore 1+1=1, the same unchanged 1.
If I have to put things in a group, sum, composition, those "1s" must
be somehow different, or my sight would not be able to notice any
difference between them and I will see only one "1". (I noticed that it was easier for many children to calculate different objects. An apple, a cat, a dog, and a pencil - all in one "box", making a group of "4". It was easier for them to calculate "items" into one numeric number when the items were different in shapes and colors. The "same" monotonous 1s, or units took longer to do the same simple procedure. I have found the answers later on, while practicing art painting and discovering the most fundamental laws in perceiving - the law of comparison). I was sitting in
my class absolutely bewildered. My little body was trembling as I rose,
daring to ask my teacher a very silly question in front of my
classmates: "Can a 1 be a little bigger or smaller that the other 1s? Or
are those 1s absolutely the same units?" "Certainly the same. This is
math! Look, one apple plus another apple will be two apples. We deal with numbers here!" "I
just do not understand how things can be turned into numbers," I
mumbled. My classmates were at first quiet and then started giggling.
However I knew that I was not the only child in the world bewildered by a "perfect mathematical logic".
I thought: "so many people are so serious about arithmetic and mathematics, they must
know better what they do, or maybe they just have an extraordinary imagination, but I have not. Perhaps
my teacher wants me to pretend that in some wonder world of math the
very same identical units could really exist, survive as the same units next to each other, absolutely fixed and unchanged. In that wonder world
they can be devoured by monsters like 2, 3, 4, 5 and so on, in such a
way that they can appear again, pop up back to their old places, perfectly unchanged".
Natural science did not seem to me natural. In my child's experience
in dealing with reality things changed mercilessly, never staying fixed
or absolutely the same. However, people call them the same names, like
the sun, a house, a face, a thought, even when they drastically change
their colors, sizes, shapes, movements. How do I and they recognize those subjects as "the same" things?
I was still bewildered, and then gladly accepted the great Greek
Heraclitus' conclusion: "One cannot step into the same river twice".
I was pretty much convinced that not only the river but my own self could not be exactly the same even for a moment. My feelings, thoughts and
whims were constantly slightly, or even drastically changed. Things and numbers in there are fixed in every position and
combination. Numbers can present the same labels imaginatively glued on different
things, and they can also turn different things into just labels,
nothing else. Things in wonder mathematics can very conveniently stay unchanged while one thinks about what to do with them. Why? How can I apply it to my reality?
If I take one apple once, and it will be 1 time. If I take it twice,
it will be 2 times. But what is 2 times then? Are they ideal
repetitions? In that case no matter how many times ideals will be
ideally repeated neither values nor situations will be changed. How would repetitions work in reality?
On a little break after that class I made my first scientific
experiment. I wanted to see if I could calculate motions. I went
downstairs to the back entrance door, when no one was around. I opened a
very heavy door with great effort and let it shut itself. I tried to
repeat this procedure a few times in the same way. The door squeakily
shut every time, but never in exactly the same way. I imagined that that huge door after many movements, finally had to fall apart. That
door like any human machine could only make movements in similar ways. But can even a very special machine make absolutely exact movements? Is there any clock for instance, that ticks so perfectly that it does not need to be rewinded?
From the Poem ......... but if blindness disappeared and everyone could see No artist to paint. If my humanly peculiar senses cannot give me the world =================================================== THE IS NO TIME WITHOUT A MIND It was no time before I opened my eyes to see the world. I cannot be late for myself -- I am always on time. |
